Mental Prison

It is one thing to be physically behind bars for a crime

f9fee46d9f2ec9fcac26912929af1eee--break-free-mental-healthone has committed, but it is a completely different scenario when there are bars that surround your mind that you imagined to be there. Your own personal prison.

You can say how you don’t belong in prison. That you are far from the evil person that belongs there. However, your mind says otherwise. Your mind believes you are worthy to be in a cell with no way to escape. Your mind believes you are to be punished for your actions throughout life. Your mind believes you are to remain in that cell until you truly prove yourself that you don’t belong there.

What sense does it make to prove that you don’t belong in a place that you put yourself in?

You feel as though it is a way to redeem yourself from whatever wrong you’ve done even though you may or may not have already been forgiven. You feel like more should have happened to you than what met the eye. You sit comfortable in that cell hoping for a chance to prove your innocence.

But why?

You believe doing it from a cell is the right way? Just look at how people that are in actual cells are treated. Whether they are guilty or innocent, they are behind bars with no freedom. If you know within yourself you don’t belong, then you would never even be in such a place. But because you are, it is expected that you are looked at as a criminal. A wicked person. A vile creature. A worthless vessel.

And since you decided to lock yourself in your own custom made cell, you look at your own self that way as well.

If it is one thing you can never do, it is that you cannot make people think what you want them to think. No matter how far you go, or how hard you try, one may never come in terms with understanding you to where they deny anything from you. Even if it is for the greater good.

And because of that, you feel as though you will forever belong in that cell. So long as you can’t prove to them you are different than what they think & to yourself that don’t belong in the cell you created specifically for you.

It all feels like a trance yet it started from within you. The only key to release those shackles & open the cell comes from where it all began. You always hold the key, but you think the only way to turn it is from another source. It all makes sense to you because it is what you comes from your mind.

But it doesn’t.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because of your wrong doings.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because you cannot make someone feel a certain way.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because you feel as though you are what they think you are.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because you want your inner suffering to be noticed.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because you believe you should only be free once you make things right.

It does not make sense to lock your mentality in a prison because like you believe, you do not belong in any prison whatsoever.

Understanding that it does not make sense will eliminate the sense it was making in your mind. Understanding that you truly do not belong in a prison cell will eliminate you believing you do. Understanding the strength of your self love will grant your mind immunity from ever imagining yourself in a cell. Understanding that you do not need anyone’s approval to know you are better within will break the chains you set yourself in.

And forgiving your own self for your faults & mistakes will set you free.

Free as you once were before such thoughts filled your mind.

 

 

 

2 Comments

  1. Very good article. As someone who works in prison ministry for a Bible College specializing in correspondence education, I have seen the best and worst of humanity, it seems. It’s funny, I get a Christmas card every year from a guy who was convicted of rape and double homicide. To us, he is a person who done something terrible, but whose entire life should not be defined by that. This is not to justify anything he done, and our job is not to fight for early release. Our job is to honor his desire to learn more; to treat him as a human being and a student, not an animal. One former convict I talked to said when you’re trying to start over after you get out of prison, it’s like having a big “X” on your back. He said it seems everyone is against you, but there are some of us who who try and see the good in people; what they can be instead of who they used to be. I truly believe anyone is capable of overcoming their past, you just have to have the guts and the will to keep going, no matter what anyone else thinks. Good job.

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