Nigga

Straight from the hood, yet never from the streets.

Society already sees me as a failure.

Why is that?

Because anyone that lives in poverty will never succeed? All they will ever be is criminals & failures?

Even if it was not their fault for being forced to live in such a desolate environment.

Why is such a place infested with drugs & violence? Why does the world demonize the people that live within the infestation & not acknowledge the struggle people face to survive?

There are gifted & talented people here. People who have a dream to succeed. Who ignore all the corruption around them & maintain faith in escaping the trenches.

But even they aren’t safe no matter how much faith they have. Even if they were to separate themselves from the stereotypes.

Its usually those that never faced the struggle who laugh at the struggle others face. The fortunate feels superior over the less fortunate. They assume anyone that lives in poverty deserves to be there. After all, to them we are animals. Vile creatures. Such an environment suits us apparently.

No no we don’t need to fix these broken communities. What we need is more security. More armed forces to detain these wild animals. To eliminate if necessary. There’s no telling what they are capable of, so the first strike will be justified. You will be far more protected than them.

I laugh.

Why?

Well, just think about it for a second.

“The first strike will be justified”.

I could be taking a stroll through the neighborhood, & then the first strike is issued against me out of no where. All because I apparently carry “wild animal instincts”. I could lose control. I could be a threat. I could be a menace to society. To prevent such chaos from ever occurring, I must be stopped. Multiple bullets to the body will for sure do justice. Each & ever bullet justified. A hero returns home to his family & his people while the so-called “villain” that was slain erupts chaos amongst his people.

Their “wild animal instincts” has them calling for justice for their fallen, to shame the “hero” responsible for the slaughter & demand equality for as none of us should ever be viewed as anything less of a human being.

But it is all ignored. The cycle continues as it has been for hundreds of years.

This darker skin I carry, is it a curse?

Its like having a red target symbol on my chest. I am vulnerable all around. I am hated. Just being alive makes me a possible threat. Because the world has seen the darker side of who we are. The infamous Nigga.

I could dedicate my life fighting for this country. Risking myself each & everyday out in enemy territory just for the American people & our freedom, & then return home to be disrespected, shot at, & killed because to them, I am just another “nigga”.

I am of no importance.

In every black man, the Nigga is either active publicly, or dormant. What I mean by that is, there are those who embrace it & those who hide it. Yet, society knows one way or the other, that side will always show itself. And they will be ready to annihilate it along with the vessel that carries it.

I was raised to never embrace that side. I will be killed if I ever did so. But I can & will still be killed without doing so. Just for trying to be a regular person in a world that is suppose to be free for all. Niggas do not deserve to be free. Niggas do not deserve to be in this country. Niggas do not deserve to live.

Either we kill them, or just let them kill themselves.

Ah yes, that way we won’t have their blood on our hands. Trap them in poverty. Destroy their hopes of survival. Make them fight themselves to live. Brainwash them so they will never discover the truth. Whoever breaks the control needs to be silenced swiftly. Disguise the hitman as one of their own. Black on black crime it will forever be to them. Niggas are too foolish to ever be able to learn anything. The drugs have fried their brain cells as expected. All they are ever good for is raising the crime rates.

Oh the police sure must love doing their jobs. Who’s to say the most times they’ve ever had a gun drawn & fired was against us “animals”? That is what the media shows right?

But the whole world doesn’t have one big surveillance camera for us to see every bit of injustice out there. The media has proven to delude us. To give attention on one thing when all attention should be on something much more important. To assassinate the character of the innocent.

To those that are truly ignorant & blind to admit, I did not ask to be born in this skin or to be born into place to live my life. I did not ask to be labeled as a possible menace. I did not ask to have a gun in my face or to be profiled for being black. There has been nothing done in my life to ever deserve the foul mistreatment by those who delude the world thinking they are saints & saviors.

But I’m the one that should leave if I am displeased with the circumstances? How could anyone stand & bear witness to the treachery & do nothing so long as it does not involve them?

Wait.

I’m just a Nigga though.

Why am I talking about all of this?

Better yet, how do I even know about the real corruption thats been going on for so long?

Why am I spreading the awareness?

I thought a Nigga would never be able to do such things. My mind should be plagued with drugs & violence. I should have already fell into the dark temptations that make the Nigga. Perhaps I should have been dead sometime ago.

But no, I am still alive. I am yet to be silenced. But my words will remain loud to where it will be impossible to silence. The revolution will change everything. And the “Nigga” will never again be undermined & underestimated.

This is my reality.

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5 Comments

  1. Just keep writing, use photography, use social media. There’s inequality everywhere. It can be stopped but it has to be done by the people, so just keep writing and publishing and one day the tide will turn. Your latent talent needs developing but you have it. Your writing is your voice……Jimmy Bee

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  2. Thank you for sharing this. It’s not that I’m unaware nor unsympathetic to these things. I’m completely aware and I voice it in my own way. What you gave me through this writing was the opportunity to look within and touch the heart of every person of color. I read this last night and was completely overwhelmed by it. I knew it would affect my perspective in a very significant way. I didn’t know how.

    When I woke this morning, looking into the faces of any person of color, I saw them differently. Like this writing gave me the ability to not only see their plight but truly see within their hearts and human beings and higher beings.

    I knew there was still a barrier stopping me from getting to this point. It wasn’t a barrier that caused me to neglect what people of color go through. I was purely a skin barrier. At times, a cultural barrier.

    You spoke from your heart. The heart of a human being. Though you were talking about color, you put color aside. It became not just the black person’s plight but the plight of us all. I could relate to your feelings in so many ways. Things I have faced in my own life. This relation allowed me to enter into the heart of the people, rather than simply be pained by their plight in life.

    This is a very beautiful and poignant statement from the heart. Not to induce anger or hatred toward what may be the cause of this problem but to say, “Hey, look inside me/us. I’m/We’re human beings, treat us as such.”

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  3. I think it’s terrific that you’re putting your words on the page; words are powerful. Some of what you have to say is difficult to read; however, we all need to live in that discomfort to truly understand. Keep it up and thank you.

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  4. I feel sad to read this post. It is unfair how things are going. Reflecting that, there are less fortunate people who wouldn’t stand a chance even if they are smart, or willing to sacrifice, or work hard. Sometimes I wonder if luck plays a part. Just have to make do with what we have, and make the best out of every situation.

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